Living in a Different World

Happy Thanksgiving!

2009-11-26T00:09:00.001-05:00

Just wanna wish you all a happy thanksgiving and spend the time with your loved ones! =)

Something is wrong with me

2009-11-23T23:54:00.003-05:00

Don’t know why I have been feeling down lately. Even my friends around me said something abt it today and asked if I was alright...I don’t even know how to respond. I don’t know wat is wrong with me. I’m guessing that there are just so many things going around all at once. And from writing this blog, I think my feels wants to come out but I’m holding it back in the real life...I'm going crazy.

Cute guy at a restaurant and nothing more

2009-11-22T23:42:00.001-05:00

I got back to my dorm room around 10ish from home. Once I walked in the room, I saw a girl on my roommate’s bed, and it scared me a bit…just a little. I wasn’t expecting her to be here. Idk if they are going out or anything, he never told me, but from wat I see…I think so? I’ll ask him once I get the chance.
Saturday was alright, nothing fun usually when I go back home. Didn’t wake up till around 1:30 and made myself some lunch. Then I head out to best buy to do some research on some netbook. My laptop battery is failing and would not even last for an hour, so hoping to get a netbook to replace my big ass laptop so I don’t have to carry that to class every day.

Anyways, Saturday night our family went to legal seafood to celebrate my parents wedding anniversary. Our waiter, Peter, was pretty cute. He was white abt 5’8” or 9” and was on the slim side. My seat was facing the kitchen door so my eyes were chasing him in and out from the kitchen to the dining area. Hopefully no one saw me staring =P. I ordered some grilled sea scallops and they cooked it perfectly. It was yummy. =) So my sister and I ended up leaving early to go buy something for her husband and we left my dad to pay the bill. So when we all met up back at home, my parents were talking abt the bill and wat we founded out was he didn’t tip the waiter. And I was like WHAT??? The poor cute waiter did fine on him job and didn’t get anything out of it??? So I guess we have to go to an American restaurant more often, not to check out some cute guys, (which would be fun!!) but to let my dad know how to pay them right cuz he thought the tip was included on the bill. -.-
Today was uneventful, dad got out and bought an all in one printer and had to set that up. I was suppose to get help from a friend to install my intake for me but I guess he was busy and didn’t pick up his phone. So pretty much was home and watched some TV. It was some nice relaxing weekend.

And from writing this blog, it reminded me of Peter, the waiter, again…omg!!! Haha I’m a creep. Well I think I should go work on the story of my life so I can post it on here soon. Either you like this or not…plz leave a comment or something to let me know. I would be more than happy to get some feedbacks.

Turkey for dinner?!?!

2009-11-20T22:43:00.004-05:00

Ughh...just got home from work and smells like Chinese food (the American Chinese food that is if u know wat I am talking about). I work at a Chinese restaurant if you havent figured it out yet. Btw...I did get to take my shower earlier for any one who’s wondering out there. Abt to go take another one soon...don’t wanna smell like food =p.

I have to say, the weather here is REALLY crazy. It went from pouring this morning around 7:00 to cloudy around 11:00 then the sun was out around 2:00??!?!?! The world is gonna end soon with this craziness!!

Work was pretty busy tonight, had turkey for dinner...kinda weird right? like a week b4 thanksgiving?? Anyways...i'm probably write more tomorrow. Planning to talk abt my life more.

Bored and yucky in class =/

2009-11-20T12:29:00.004-05:00

Actually sitting in an International Relations class...I didnt ended up taking my shower and I’m like half asleep and feeling like yuck. Maybe even like a homo sitting at the back of the lecture hall zzZZzZzzzZZZ. Lol. I ended up watching the whole show on food network and made me 5 mins late to class =p. but I think it was worth it.

I guess it wasn’t that bad when I got outside this morning…the rain actually stopped. Talk about weather in the New England area…it changes like crazy!! But I just guess it was a good thing, I didn’t get soaked =) Got abt 20 more mins of this class and be don’t for the week! Can’t wait for the weekend!!! Other than working tonight…then I will really be done. Hopefully my friend will be around to help me on putting an intake to my car =) and mhmm I’m a little car freak too heheh~

After this class…I gtg take that shower and then grab some food for the 45 mins road back home to get ready for work… I drive back from school to home every weekend. My friends call me crazy but I would still like to keep my job and second…I got no choice. My mom wants me back. I’ll tell you more abt my family and me and more of my background this weekend…or prob. Tonight if I’m not dead after work.

Rainny days make me sad =(

2009-11-20T09:42:00.008-05:00

Its pouring out right now and I really dont want to go to class. Omg...I was gonna write a little more but i'm caught in cooking show on the food network. So I ended up saving my writing and maybe add onto it later on. I'm crazy...it’s 10 something here in the morning and watching the food network...talk abt no LIFE XD.

GRRRR when can this rain stop??? I hate rain!!! It makes me all wet (hey...think right!) but i specially hate it when it hits my face. It gets my shoes dirty, jacket all wet, and the bottom of the jeans wet too!! EWWW!!! Its disgusting. Ya and just the fact of walking out into the street and everything is gray?!?!? The only think I like abt rain is I get a free car wash hehe =)

I gtg soon...gotta take a shower and head to class...then another class...then maybe lunch...then driving back to my home town to go to work =/

Gonna be a really long day.......

First post - about me

2009-11-19T11:08:00.003-05:00

i'm not too crazy abt my grammar and spelling here, this is just a place for me to share with other people. I'm a teenage boy that is pretty stressed abt life right now. After reading a few blogs, i decide to let my feelings free. This is actually a blog that i wish to keep away from people i know, that is why just created an new account and hope no one with find out XD

ok well here is a little abt me...(maybe i'll tell u more in the future).

As to most people around me...no one knows that i'm might not be straight. (At least i dont think...) The reason i worded it like that it is because i'm not sure as who i am myself. i think i DO know but its just that i dont want to admit it to myself that i'm not straight. it is not easy... I know that i am attracted to guys but in another way, my brain wants a girlfriend. i was just talking to one of my friend from high school about relationships, and wat i found out about myself was that guys = physically attracted to and girls = mentally attracted....idek if that is possible.

This is actually harder than i think...maybe its just things that have been stuck with me for a good few years and there wasnt a chance for me to let it out. In another way...i'm kinda happy that i plan on doing this. (we'll just see if it last)
i just hope to let some feelings out and also would like to hear some feed back...anything would be good. =)